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Happy Fathers Day

Just wanted to write a quick post about my dad, the guy that helped me so much throughout my life. While my father isn’t an atheist, or at least isn’t openly an atheist, he did instill in me the idea that things are always ok to question. My father never scorned me for asking anything, he always met my questions with joy and tried to answer them as best as he could.

Dad isn’t a highly educated man but he can do anything. I’m saddened at times knowing that my father sees my college education and some sort of proof that I am smarter than him but that couldn’t be farther from the truth. My father is one of the smartest men I have ever known. He has the kind of hard working know-how that only comes from a long life of dedication and love for his family. Dad would have given up anything if it meant that my brother and I had more. We were very poor when I was young but I never felt poor during those times. My dad would often times eat nothing but popcorn for lunch so that they could spend a little more money on food for the family. He scrimped and saved and always had a roof over our heads.

I can remember many night, my father rubbing his brow at the table going through the monthly bills. The stress was palpable and yet he always seemed to somehow make ends meet. My brother and I never felt as if we did without anything. We had clothes, shoes, games, toys, all the things that a child could have.

Sadly we never had one thing from my father, that is the words, “I love you.” See my father’s childhood wasn’t close to the experience of my own. When my father was just 12 years old his mother told him that she loved him as he went to school and upon his return she had vanished. He wouldn’t see her again for nearly a year. When my grandmother ran off my grandfather suffered a nervous breakdown and was institutionalized. He wouldn’t get out of the asylum until after my grandmother returned.

During that year my father and his sister lived with an aunt and uncle. They too were alcoholics and while my uncle sexually abused my aunt he beat my father with anything he could get his hands on. My father told me of a time that he took a log chain and beat my father so severely that my dad thought he was going to die.

Then his mother showed back up and the first words out of her mouth were, “I love you.”

Dad is almost completely incapable of saying those words, they physically pain him and cause him a great deal of mental anguish. So he never said it, not once during my entire childhood did I ever hear my father tell me that he loved me. I knew he did because of all he did for us but it’s strange to explain the pain of never having heard those words.

If you’ve read my journey away from faith series you will know that shortly after my 18th birthday I hopped on a bus and headed to Texas. The night that I left the family drove me to the bus station and we sat waiting for the bus to arrive. It pulled up, I started to get on and my dad grabbed my arm. He hugged me close and said, “I love you.”

I cannot describe the emotion that coursed through my body that night. Even today when I think about it those same feelings are still there. I love my dad, and he loves me. Even though he doesn’t say it much I know he does.

Thank you dad for being amazing.
I love you!

Weekend Tube

The List: Formerly Known as Weekend Tube: 6/14/18

Hello Hellbound Friends, just going to get right to it today!

Honorable Mention: Jen with_1_n

I just wanted to put this here because it’s seriously one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me. Thank you Jen! You Rock!

#11: Black Sofa: Introducing Chess Piercy

This is a great video and an excellent interview. It deals with some rather controversial topics so probably NSFW but very entertaining!

#10 Luciano Gonzalez: An Unexpectedly Intense Conversation

This video is awesome! Seriously, it totally blew me away! Just watch it!

#9 Prophet of Zod: Responding to Suris’ “Worst Arguments Against God”

This video threw me for a loop, I honestly got concerned for a few minutes. It’s a really good video so check it out!

#8 Geek Room: 2k Q&A

Way to go guys! This was a seriously funny stream! 3k in three weeks! Everyone watch, like, and subscribe!

#7 Anti-Ordinary: R/DumbReligion Collab

Absolutely hilarious video with a ton of great content creators, including myself. We respond to a bunch of Christian Memes and social media posts.

#6 Telltale Atheist: What Happened in Waco, Texas

Another great video from Telltale, this time on Waco and the Branch Davidians. I think you are really going to enjoy this and the contributions from Objectively Dan.

#5 Godless Engineer: Atheists Always Deny Truth And Reality That The Earth Is Flat

Another amazingly funny comment video from Godless Engineer. He is in rare form during this one and I really enjoyed it!

#4 Shannon Q: Dissonance About Dissonance

Are you suffering from Dissonance? Idk, probably, but I most certainly am not…or am I? Great video from Shannon Q!

#3: Digital Hammurabi: Did the Bible Predict the Big Bang?

I really like the new artwork on the channel. This video is maybe the first modern religious video on the channel and it’s a great one. Did the Bible predict the big bang? No it did not!

#2 Godless Cranium: Mark Driscoll and Steven Crowder Play Word Games

What is better than a video including GM Skeptic getting his head crapped in by a Shar Pei? Not much that I can think of!

#1 Ancient Astronauts: Sitchin, Nibiru & the Annunaki: Digital Hammurabi

Digital Hammurabi joined the Nonsequitur show to discuss ancient aliens. It’s a great discussion and one of the most interesting streams that I have watched on the topic. Chariot of the gods??? I think not….lol

Video of the Week: Noel Plum:Appeal to Emotion/Ideology (and thoughts on why they work)

An incredible video by noel Plum describing Appeals to Emotion and why they work so well on most of the population. If you are into videos about fallacies, then this is the one for you! Check it out and I truly think you will see why it made its way to the top of the list. Great video!


So those are the videos this week. Is there a video that you feel should have been on the list but wasn’t included? Let me know in the comments. Also if you enjoy the videos please like and subscribe to their channels, they are all amazing content creators and will truly appreciate it!

Weekend Tube

Weekend Tube: 06/08/2018

Hello everyone and welcome to an all new edition of weekend tube. I slowed my video making schedule down just a bit to make writing and lists like this easier to produce. I really miss writing and hope to get some new blogs out very soon. Anyway, let’s get to it.

Honorable Mention: A Discussion on Atheists and Agnostics

Normally I wouldn’t include videos from my own channel in this list, but this stream was about as perfect as any stream could go. It was civil, fun, intelligent, and just all around great. Special thanks go to my two guests, God is Not Good and Steve McRae.

Honorable Mention #2: Interview with Godless Iowan

i was also honored to be interviewed by CapBrony on his channel. This interview kinda goes off the deep end rather quickly but I truly enjoyed it. Thanks CAP!

Honorable Mention #3 TGR Debates: Missus Snarky vs SJ – Abortion

Missus Snarky and SJ sat down and had a discussion about Abortion on The Geek Room, it was absolutely incredible but Missus Snarky has barred me from placing her on the list…so I found a loophole. Not technically on the list. lol

#21 Chess Piercy: My Personal Sex Experience

This is a bit of a side tale on this list. Dealing with the personal sexual experience of another YouTuber. I felt it should be included because it is so open and honest. Thank you for sharing!

#20 Digital Hammurabi: Learn To Read Sumerian

Have you ever been somewhere and realized you needed to be able to read Sumerian? Probably not but that’s no reason not to watch this video, it’s absolutely amazing!

#19 Frustrated Atheist: Frustrated Atheist becomes….A Theist?!?!

Frustrated Atheist is new to the list here but I found this video interesting. In it he meets the challenge to present the best argument for the existence of a god. Check it out and subscribe!

#18 Genetically Modified Skeptic: 5 More Awful Objections to Anti-Theism

GM Skeptic shows off some of his comedy chops in this video. Great job and a great video all in all. Check it out and be ready to laugh!

#17 Godless Engineer: KC’s Corner: Can President Donald Trump Pardon Himself?

Great video from KC on the question as to whether the President can pardon himself. The answer may seem to make no sense but she does know her constitution.

#16 EliJah Davallos: Why Do You Think Atheists Don’t Believe In God?

A Frank Turek Response video that lies in it’s title….who would have thought it? Great video from Elijah and I can’t recomment it enough! Check it out!

#15 Hugo and Jake: Jordan Peterson Doesn’t understand Reality

Hugo and Jake have done a few videos so far on Jordan Peterson and I have really enjoyed them. In this video they discuss his book, 12 Rules For Life. Jordan Peterson is a nut and I think you’ll be hardpressed to disagree after watching this video.

#14 Godless Cranium: Heathen Hour Podcast: Jackson Wheat vs Matt Powell

Jackson Wheat is a beast of many smiles in this video. Absolutely destroying each and every poorly constructed argument that Matt Powell could come up with. Great Job Jackson, and great job GC and Shannon for putting this together!

#13 Telltale Atheist: Is The Westboro Baptist Church a Cult?

Is the Westboro Baptist Church a Cult? The answer may shock you, or it might not but the video itself is excellent. I learned a lot and that is always important!

#12 The Milwaukee Atheists: Monk Raids Atheist Podcast!

I have no idea what is going on in this video but it really made me laugh and that’s enough to earn a spot on this weeks list!

#11 Daily Data: Neo-Assyrian Plague Amulet

Another Great video for this weeks list from Digital Hammurabi, this time discussing a plague amulet as well as how to read it. I thought this was pretty interesting!

#10 Nonsequitur Show: The Traitor’s Coin: Judas to Brutus: Rick Yifrach

A show about ancient coinage, doesn’t sound like much but I found this stream to be absolutely fascinating. I love history and seeing some of these coins was truly a joy.

#9 Prophet of Zod: “There’s More Evidence for Jesus than for Ceasar”

I’ve loved this series of videos from Zod, so if you haven’t watched them all start from the beginning. If you have watched them all then this video is another great edition to the series. Is there really more evidence for Jesus than Caesar?

#8 Paulogia: Leaving My Father’s Faith – For Father’s Day

Boy this video really hit me hard. It’s not my father that I lost a relationship with when I left the faith, but my mother. We’ve been able to fix things to some degree but I know that she will always see me as a backslider going to hell and that hurts, a lot. Thank you Paul for making this video!

#7 Godless Engineer: Earth is Flat and Only Sweaty Virgins Believe It’s a Globe

GE has a great comments video this week! I laughed so hard throughout the entire video! Really made my day, and up til that point it had been a truly shitty day for me, so thank you GE!

#6 Anti-Ordinary: Re: The Earth is FLAT because Metaphors!

Another video that really brightened my week was this one from Anti-Ordinary. In it she responds to a Flat Earther who believes that Hillary Clinton proves the Flat Earth…soooo dumb…lol

#5 Nonsequitur Show: Greater Sapien: To The End’s of The Earth

I had never heard of Greater Sapien until I watched this video. The way he talks to Flat Earthers is something else. Really trying his best to bring the topic down to the simplest level and connect at their own ability to reason. I commend him for that.

#4 The worst arguments AGAINST god. (LHAC)

What are some of the arguments against god that Atheists should stop using. Now I’m not going to say i completely agree because I do think some of these arguments if placed in a proper context can work, but still used in the way that Suris points out won’t help in any way whatsoever.

#3 Hiith: The Flat Earth Antarctic Treaty Conspiracy

Is there really a treaty preventing folks from going to the southpole? Hiith brings the truth of this matter to light. Awesome video!

#2 Bionic Dance: God’s Flat Earth

Does it matter whether the Bible says the Earth is flat or not? Bionic Dance makes a great argument for why is wouldn’t matter and why it matters much more what people do than by what a book says. Great video!

#1 Professor Stick: Lunar Phases on the Flat Earth – FAIL

Have flat earthers come up with a working model of the flat earth? Professor Stick destroys this model with precise wit and science! Absolutely fantastic video!

Video of the Week: Black Sofa: 99,999,999.99 Percent Proof Urf is Flat!!!

Absolutely nothing made me laugh harder than this video. It was so different than anything Black Sofa has done up to this point and so hilarious. Thank you so much for making this video I cannot tell you how hard I laughed or for how long.

Videos

Atheists R Dum! Gman Edition!

That’s right folks, it’s a Gman video. If you are ready for some absolutely ludicrous ideas and ridiculous statements, stay tuned an please subscribe, also hit that bell icon so you don’t miss any new videos from this channel! Not sure why he is standing with a bunch of barrels behind him during this entire video but he presents an argument that is easily debunked by the law of noncontradiction.

Videos

Subscribe Saturday: Jen with_1_n

It’s been a few weeks since I did one of these and the entry today deserves this for two reasons. Reason one is that her channel and content so far rocks! Reason two is that I had to cancel an interview with her earlier this week and I honestly feel horrible about it. My internet went out and wasn’t fixed until yesterday. So for your viewing pleasure I present to you, Jen with_1_n!

First and foremost, Jen with_1_n is a community builder, she is always engaging in the comment section and live chats of YouTube channels. Always there to offer encouragement and support. The above video was made in preparation of a live stream that occurred yesterday. It was amazing!

Her channel is just starting out so she doesn’t have much content yet, but what she does have is an amazing idea. Into the Alphabet is a great series that focuses on a variety of topics. A is for Apostasy was the first of this series and it blew us away. Great job!

The second in this series was just as good and dealt with the different translations of the Bible that exist. It’s a great video and one that I hope you will all check out!

The third in this series deals with the Churching of women, or how women are taught to behave in the church. It’s another excellent video and I can’t wait to see more from this channel.

So Jen with_1_n, thank you for all you have done so far in helping build the community, thank you for the great videos you have made so far, and thank you for just being you!

She is currently at 70 subs, let’s get her to 100!

Also follow her on twitter: @IwearCrocsAlot

Weekend Tube

Weekend Tube: 06/01/2018

Hello Hell-Bound Friends! Sadly I was without internet for most of the week and so in order to get this list out, I had to make some sacrifices. Unfortunately you won’t find any streams featured in this weeks videos, you also won’t find any videos that went over 15 minutes in length. There is one exception but it only slightly went over that mark and thus I deemed it as ok. The last thing I want to mention is that you might notice a theme this week. It might be hard to notice at first, but if you get it award yourself with a breath of fresh air. You deserve it!

#10 Zoe Does Life: Dear Millennials: THIS is how you should live your life

You know all the advice folks give when they have never been asked? Well Zoe does and in this episode she speaks on advice given to Millenials. I really thought this video was pretty funny and I think you’ll enjoy it as well!

#9 Disappointed Optimist: Approximately 5 Minutes of Dead Horse Beating

Everyone knows the Banana thing…everyone knows it’s wrong…but did you know Disappointed Optimist holds a strong and deep grudge against banana kind? Well now you do! This is a great video!

#8 Skeptic Pork: Is god real? (spoiler: still no evidence)

This one slipped in even though it was slightly over the 15 minute mark. Skeptic Pork runs through so many bad arguments in this video that it would be almost criminal not to include him on the list this week. Great video man!

#7 Anti-Ordinary: Re: Closet Gays Spread Aids

Another great video from Anti-Ordinary, she is in rare form in this one though. The video she responds to presents some pretty bad arguments but she answers these with wit and great points.

#6 11 More Questions Atheists Can’t Answer – SJ Thomason Edition

Now you might not realize this but SJ Thomason released a video titled 11 questions atheists can’t answer. I know, it didn’t get much notice and kinda fell below the radar. Well Suris has answers and I think you’ll really enjoy this video!

#5: Bionic Dance: Anthropomorphizing God and Nature

A great video from Bionic Dance this week. She takes on another bad argument that theists love to make, believing that Atheists worship nature, or science, or some other such nonsense…we don’t. Amazing video!

#4 Re: 11 Questions that Atheists Cannot Answer (+More Shoutouts)

Now you might not realize this but SJ Thomason released a video titled 11 questions atheists can’t answer. I know, it didn’t get much notice and kinda fell below the radar. Well Cosmological has answers and I think you’ll really enjoy this video!

#3 Where Does Morality Come From?

Telltale Science is another channel by Telltale Atheist, one you should definitely subscribe to. In this video he delves into the idea of morality and it’s origins. It’s an intelligently made video and one that I really think you will all enjoy!

#2 Godless Cranium: SJ Thomason’s Unanswerable Questions Are Answered Effortlessly

Now you might not realize this but SJ Thomason released a video titled 11 questions atheists can’t answer. I know, it didn’t get much notice and kinda fell below the radar. Well Godless Cranium has answers and I think you’ll really enjoy this video!

#1 Prophet of Zod Fixes the “11 Questions” List

Now you might not realize this but SJ Thomason released a video titled 11 questions atheists can’t answer. I know, it didn’t get much notice and kinda fell below the radar. Well Prophet of Zod has fixed questions and I think you’ll really enjoy this video!

Frustration of the Week: Mediacom Cable Internet

Not a video but god damn…what a pain in the ass it was to be without internet for an entire week simply because my cable company accidentally turned off my internet and somehow didn’t realize it had been turned off when I called them last week!!!

Video of the Week: My Morning Routine With Jesus

This video is so funny! I really didn’t know what to expect when going into this one but came away with sore ribs from all the laughing that I did. Great video and more than deserving of being this weeks Video of the Week Winner!