Freethought Friday

Late Free-Thought Friday: Duke Bonanza

Today’s late Free-Thought Friday post comes from a friend on twitter, Duko Bonanza. I think you’ll find his story compelling, interesting, and emotional. More of duke can be found on his blog Dukebonanza.com.


 

My Atheist Testimony

When I was young I loved Jesus. I thought he was the fuckin’ bees knees. I was passionate about Christianity, and lived my life as a devout Independent Baptist. I believed the earth was 6000 years old, and created in a literal 6 days. I believed every word of the Bible was God breathed into the minds of the men who wrote it without any input from them at all, and the only English translation of the Bible that was relevant was the King James 1611.

So what happened Duke? Why’d you decide to join a group of baby eating, amoral, heretics reviled the world over?

I’m often asked by concerned believers: “What happened? Did someone die?

I’m glad you asked that, because that’s just what we’re going to talk about today.

I began having doubts in my mid 20’s. Those doubts did not come to fruition until my late 20’s early 30’s but somewhere in the depths of my brain was a small voice saying: “you know this is bullshit, right?”

I’m often asked by concerned believers: “What happened? Did someone die? What caused you to be so bitter towards God?” It wasn’t anything so dramatic as that. For me it was a simple lack of his presence. It was the countless nights of crying out into the darkness, and getting no reply.

And the voice started getting louder everyday:

“8 million species of animals in groups of 2 and 14 on a fucking boat? For how long?”

“The majority of the stars we see are way further than 6000 light years away.”

“Dude you’ve read the Old Testament, you know God’s a viscious cunt right?”

I had no idea where to look for information, but I was looking at Penn’s Wikipedia page…

At 32 I had moved to being a deist, which quickly progressed to agnosticism before the year was out. Around that time I discovered Penn Jillette. I had no idea what being an atheist meant. I had no idea where to look for information, but I was looking at Penn’s Wikipedia page (I don’t remember why now) and saw that he is an atheist, so I googled his name, came across his YouTube channel, and started watching.

Through him I found Hitchens, and through Hitch I found Sam Harris, and I rather quickly became an atheist. I heard arguments I had never heard before, and they hit on all of my points of concern with pinpoint accuracy.

I did, however, still talk to God. Mostly when I was angry at him about something.

That’s an interesting part of my atheist journey. I was so used to just talking to God when I was hurt, scared, or just plain pissed off that I just kept doing it. Then one day, I was just about to start up when I said to myself: “Why are you doing this? He’s not there.” And a thousand pounds was lifted off my shoulders.

Up until that point I had been in abject misery over the loss of my faith and I desperately wanted it back. My marriage was falling apart. I was mostly hiding my beliefs for fear of reprisal. I felt betrayed and lied to by every person I loved, and worse I had led quite a few people to Christianity (including 3 confirmed atheists).

In that one moment all of that disappeared. My fear, and anger melted away and for the first time in my life I felt saved.

I went straight home and changed my Facebook status to atheist, and confirmed the fears of everyone I knew.

That was the beginning of the end for my marriage. It resulted in one of the worst fights my ex and I ever had. We were never the same. It took about 5 years to finally end. We fought the whole time, and if I’m honest I don’t really miss her. I miss having my daughter, but not my ex. I remember her looking me dead in the eyes the night of that fight and saying:

“Now all my friends are going to know they were right about you.”

And I suppose they were. I learned that day that love, perhaps, can’t conquer all.

Since then I’ve been an out of the closet atheist. I don’t necessarily broadcast it where I live (bum-fuck Florida) but everyone who knows me, knows I don’t believe.  And I wouldnt change that for the world.

So that my story, or I should say the short version of it. One life saved from an existence of meaningless servitude to a God that’s not there, and not a moment to soon.

Duke’s bio:

High priest in the church of the Risen Macho Man Randy Savage
U.N. ambassador for Gay Jesus
Lives in rural Florida
Surrounded by Baptists

Videos

Weekend Tube: 04/27/18

Hello Hell-Bound Friends! Another week has come and gone and so another Weekend Tube is here for your viewing pleasure. Let’s get to it!

Honorable Mention: Another Freaking Atheist

The man who started this channel was one of mine and probably many of the smaller channels on Youtube today’s first subscribers and most adamant promoters. He does everything he can to help out the community and I hope you will all check out his channel and subscribe.

#17 The Geek Room: Higher Learning w/ Kyle, Jade, Bionic Dance, & an Asshole

I refuse to name the piece of garbage also headlining this show. Kyle and Bionic Dance were both Kick-Ass. Kyle really took it to Gman, showing a side of himself that not many of us had seen before. We were all immensely proud of his courage and passion.

#16 TMM: The Gay “Agenda

Short but sweet video by TMM on the backwards beliefs of Pastor Greg Locke. This one goes into his beliefs on the “Gay Agenda.”

#15 Milwaukee Atheists: Argument from Ignorance

“We don’t know and therefore we know…” Great job MA on this! Such a good video for your channels debut on Weekend tube! Awesome!

#14 NonSequitur Show: Biblical & Ancient Sumerian Text with Dr. Joshua Bowen

This was one of the most interesting discussions that I have watched on YouTube. I have a deep love of history and Dr. Bowen has a great deal of information to share. Thanks Nonseqshow for making this happen!

#13 Suris the Skeptic: What Is the harsh truth about Atheism?

Another short but sweet video, clocking in at under 5 minutes, and yet Suris is able to make a funny, interesting, and all-around awesome video. Great job man!

#12 Genetically Modified Skeptic: Jonathan Haidt Thinks New Atheists are Dogmatic (A Response)

It seems like it’s been a long time since GM Skeptic has made a response video but there is no ring rust showing in this one. Great video and also congrats on being able to go full-time with your channel.

#11 Godless Journey: The Pill That Makes You a Fool

Godless Journey Makes the List with this response to a poorly constructed theist argument. Godless Journey and I go way back to the far off reaches of the mid 2017’s, when we were young pups cutting out teeth in blogging. Glad to have you on the list my friend!

#10 Scientist Mel: #TheScienceOf 5000 Twitter Followers (aka Mel sings!)

Scientist Mel’s channel deals with science matters…usually…in this video Scientist Mel shows off her singing ability and boy does she have talent! I really hope you’ll check this out and enjoy!

#9 Paulogia: The Ken-pire Strikes Back

What happens when you are a censoring asshat who then gets called on your asshattery? You go on your show and make up even more lies to try and dig yourself out of the Rancor’s deep and cavernous butthole. Great job on calling Ken ham for his BS Paulogia!

#8 Brilliant Doubt: Why the Baha’i Faith is not “The Chill Religion”

Brilliant Doubt is one of my favorite new YouTubers. His videos have the fast style of a 1980’s Micro Machines Commercial. Sadly Brilliant Doubt is probably not old enough to remember those commercials. Anyway this is an awesome video about why the seemingly chill religion of Baha’i is not so chill.

#7 Holy Koolaid: Thomas Westbrook Destroys the Flat Earth Model on The Right to Reason Podcast

Holy Koolaid takes it to flat earth beliefs in this great segment from the Right to Reason Podcast. I hope you enjoy it! Great job!

#6 Professor Stick: Oh No!!! These Questions Are Unanserable!

These Questions are definitely not unanswerable as Professor Stick and the next entry in the list will prove. I would say that you would have to work even harder to not be able to answer these truly pathetic questions.

#5 Anti-Ordinary:  Questions No Atheist Can Answer!

If you didn’t get enough from the last video check this one out. Anti-Ordinary does an amazing job at answering these truly pathetic questions. She hits them with her signature style and I have recently learned that she never scripts her videos…I am blown away! Great Job!

#4 Godless Engineer: Avengers Infinity War Exposed as Anti-Christian Hollywood Propoganda

All of the marvel movies are made in worship of Satan…that’s all I want to say about this guys strange video. Godless Engineer is amazing at making the video hilarious and informative!

#3 Logicked: The moon is a ball of Earths in a spherical mirror. Also reptoids.

I don’t even know what to say about the argument made in the video, but Logicked is in top form and destroys it with the sophisticated class that only a reptilian could! Great job Logicked!

#2 Godless Cranium: Frank Turek is Wasting Space

Frank Turek is wasting space….need I say more. This was one of my favorite videos of the week but unfortunately the next two videos beat him out by just a hair. Great video GC!

#1 Shannon Q: Engaging in Complex Conversations

I bet you thought that if you made a video it would just magically be my video of the week….well think again, Shannon! lol Seriously though this is a wonderful first video for her channel and I can’t wait to see what else she has in store for her very….and I do mean very….patient subscribers. lol

Video of the Week: The Nonsequitur Show: 10 Questions Atheist Can’t Answer…Answered by and Atheist w/Kaitlyn Chloe!

Kaitlyn Chloe had an amazing appearance on the NonSequitur show this week. During which she answers 10 questions that no atheist can answer. She did an amazing job, was funny, and insanely smart. She even admitted to agreeing with (TOTALLY NOT AN ATHEIST) Steve McRae…I mean that fact alone gets her video of the week props!

 

So those are my favorite videos of the last week. If you feel like I missed a great one, let me know and I will definitely watch it. Have a great weekend!

Videos

Weekend Tube: 4/20/18

Hello Hell-bound friends! Time for another Weekend Tube! Let’s get right to it!

#13 Jackson Wheat: Baculum Evolution

Jackson Wheat starts off this week talking bout dick…lol Well’ the dick bone to be more precise. Interesting video on the evolution of erections.

#12 CAPBrony: AIG Thursdsay: Should a woman be forced to marry her assailant

Interesting and powerful video from CAP Brony, on the biblical response to sexual assault. Check it out!

#11 NonSequitur: Kent Hovind Responds To Being Roasted

Short but hilarious video from the NonSequitur Show. If you like Colbert’s Wyrd, you’ll love this video.

#10 Skeptic Pork: A Skeptical look at Winged Humanoids

Could winged humans exist? Skeptic Pork let’s us know! Great video!

#9 Telltale Atheist: Are Ken Ham and Kent Hovind Cult Leaders?

Great video from Telltale discussing two of the worst minds in the creationist camp today. Are they cult leaders? Check out the video to find out!

#8 Godless Engineer: KC’s Corner: Discussing Faithless Forum 2018’s Impact and Meaning

KC has GE on her show to discuss the recent Faithless Forum. Great video and great job both of you as well as all others who were at the Faithless Forum!

#7 Rachel Oates: Kent Lorenz: The Nazi Scientist Who Studied Cuteness

WWII is one of those things that I love to learn about and in this video Rachel Oates discusses something I never knew about. Very interesting!

#6 Bran The Law: Christian Anti-Vaxxers Have A Meltdown

Anti-vaxxers are idiots….that’s all I have to say about that. Thanks for making this video Bran!

#5 Nonsequitur Show: Holy Koolaid vs Craig Reed: The Justification For Religion

Holy Koolaid pulls no punches and really takes the argument to Craig. Great stream, check it out!

#4 Rationality Rules: Is the Left Eating Itself

Great video from Rationality rules about the left and how they often times seem hell-bent on self-destruction.

#3 Paulogia: 21 Reasons the Flood Didn’t-Did-Didn’t Happen

Purple Dan is a new name that I hadn’t seen much from until this video. Really interesting video and the both do a great job arguing against Ham’s hideous history.

#2 Godless Cranium: Religion is Base Level

Another great video from Godless Cranium, is there such a thing as a bad GC video? Seriously though he is able to take this incredibly boring theists argument and turn it into something entertaining and informative. Good job!

#1 The Nonsequitur Show: Biblical & Ancient Sumerian Text with Dr. Joshua Bowen

This was an amazing discussion, I loved every minute of it. Seriously more of this! So interesting!!!!

#Video of the week: Scientist Mel: #THEScience of Lightning

Scientist Mel discussing lightning, need I say more? I loved this video and learned a ton from it. WATCH THIS VIDEO!